For the past 11 and a half years of my life I have worked as the Accounting Manager for a San Francisco law firm. That means I have not had a break for longer than two weeks in eleven years. Ok, save for when I had Aleister. That was four months. Damn, sounded much better eleven years straight. . . but even still! That was almost ten years ago when I had Aleister! Eleven years. When was the last time you did the same thing for eleven years? The only thing I can compare it to was public school grades 1-12. And we all know how that transforms us. And so it is with a joyful heart that I announce that I am leaving this job and beginning the new business of me. Yep, I won’t go into all the ornery details about how or why, just suffice to say I have been calling for this opportunity for a number of years now and the nice easy push has finally manifested.
I’d like to think it has something to do with this last year. We are always expanding, growing, and changing every day. Whether we want to or not. Spend 365 days leaning into what you love and it is like leaning your foot onto the gas pedal – you speed up and something is bound to happen. And so as I come around the curve into the final stretch of this project, I wanted to dramatize a little part of me that I’m leaving behind. So, please enjoy a Farewell To A Pity Party. It is the end of an era.
Have you ever noticed that sometimes you and the people close to you have similar experiences in clumps? I’ve been noticing this a lot with my close friends lately. We’ll all have individual things that happen to each of us which bring clarity and learning of a similar lesson to all of us. Very recently it was this: Everything decision you make should be either a ‘hell yes’ or a ‘hell no’. Basically if it isn’t a “Hell Yes!” then the answer should be “Hell No!”* I know a lot of people tuning into their own emotional guidance, getting clear on what they want and what they don’t want, and living directly from it. And so as my friend Sasha and I set out to make a bit of art reflecting this, that was our intention. What I find interesting about this piece is that what we ended up exploring was not clarity, but rather that feeling of ambiguity. Should I stay or should I go? As I watched the clips later I see that we were exploring that toxic relationship that makes you second guess yourself and get looped back in. That makes you tell someone to bugger off, only to turn around and invite them back in. So I guess the aim is clarity, but there’s always gonna be those experiences that test you. By the way, I know it would appear that I am kicking Sasha’s butt near the end there, but I assure you that no Sasha’s were harmed during the making of this video!
Holly and Sasha in their more natural happy faces.
*I know I got this “Hell Yes, or Hell No!” idea from something I read, but I cannot remember the source. If someone knows who it is, then please let me know as I’d like to credit the originator and direct people to that resource if possible. Thank you!